It's not your imagination! You've changed...
Since venturing out into the world a tiny little bit I have to say the world seems a very different place. It's not the world that has changed so much. It's me. Having been in a bubble of me, my kids and their Dad for months on end, I am finding myself bowled over by other people and their energies.
I'm sensitive as it is, as an empath and tarot reader I'm attuned to other people's feelings. But this is another level. If you too are feeling it, then don't be surprised.
Before lockdown it was normal for us to run up against everybody else's vibes all day long, and find this to be part and parcel of life. We didn't notice it, because it was standard.
Lockdown allowed for us to detox from other people, their anguish, their excitement and their issues. We existed in a bubble of only our immediate folks. We got in tune with them, and let go of anything or anyone else who might impinge on that. Now, suddenly we are back amongst the many, and it feels super real. Post lockdown the experience of sharing space with others is suddenly super intense. I mean, seriously, it is so intense I may put myself on voluntary lockdown a little longer.
So how can we protect ourself from the more extreme vibes and energies of others?
Firstly you have to be aware of it. Perhaps what used to be a bit of a 'funny feeling' around certain folks, has turned into a giant red flag of ickiness. Instead of brushing this off as being imagination, look at it as a valid and real indication of how they make you feel.
If we listen to our intuition now, it will serve us well in future. If we obey the 'weird feelings' inside, then we are on a head start to understanding those niggles with real power.
Secondly, and more excitingly, I wholeheartedly recommend that you engage with the sensitivity. If something feels off, be conscious about it. If someone gives you vibes, and you know them well enough, ask them what is wrong, or what it is they are thinking about.
Let their answer be your evidence. This can be a giant leap in your spiritual and intuitive evolution.
If the vibes are truly awful, or leave you feeling less than your usual self, remove yourself from the situation. See how you feel differently once you have escaped. Notice the change and honour the very real experience of your intuition being so beautifully attuned.
We can take this moment of discomfort and attune ourselves to our sixth sense in ways life never previously allowed. Become conscious of how you feel, and respect those feelings. This is your inner empath, your gut instinct, your intuition speaking loud and clear. Credit it with value.
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I feel like I'm about to share my biggest secret with you. Something that I hadn't, until this year, really acknowledged fully to myself. However a series of events have had me going deeper into my own spirituality. This confirmed what I should have know all along. Spirit has always made herself known to me. She has always been in my life. Her latest antics have brought that home with startling veracity and I want to share this with you, because, maybe she has been with you too.
My life has always been somewhat guided. I have never felt alone or entirely lonely. For as long as I can remember, there was always some 'other' some loving force around me. As a kid I justified it to myself as my active imagination. But the wisdom I held then, has come back this year in such a powerful way. More on that in a moment...
First let's talk about all of those magical things that make up the backdrop of our lives, that we may not explore, but that gift us some mystery, some wonder.
My first memory of this came in what seemed a very human form. I vividly recall playing with a bikes wheels with my brother, we must have been aged about 3 and 4. We were daring each other to spin the wheel fast and put our fingers in the spokes. We held no fear, and it was a matter of time before one of us stuck our podgy, mucky little kid hands in the spinning wheel. When out of nowhere, in our private garden, a nice man came over. He explained that we shouldn't do that, because he did it, and he lost some fingers. He showed us his missing fingers. So we didn't do it. Nobody remembers that man. Or why he might have been there in the grounds of my Dad's vicarage. Needless to say, my fingers are intact, which is a good job too for all this typing!
I remember spending a great deal of time staring into the air as a child. Because I can see the energy. Especially when I look at the sky, or often bright flashes around people (particularly when they are speaking deploy their lives). And no, I'm not talking about the dust motes that float lazily across the cornea. I'm talking about the zipping white and sometimes coloured light that seems to make this place up. I checked the other day whilst on the trampoline with my girls. We gazed up to the sky, which is not a solid mass of blue or grey, but a seething mass of energy. Yeah I know, maybe I sound crazy.... It is what it is though. Take another look...
I have always had this wise voice within. She has protected me. She has warned me against dangerous situations and people. She has had me dream up a near car crash that woke me with a start, but saved me the very next morning when the dream played out in real life and caused my reactions to be quicker.
She told me to be damned scared that time I was walking home alone in the dark as a teenager, and a car pulled up with two grown men, and started driving alongside me. I quickened my pace and got the hell away - thank goodness I was near home. But soon after that a woman was found murdered in a ditch, a mile or so up the road. I'm not saying these things were linked. but still, it makes you think?
I don't consider myself 'psychic', yet she causes me to receive strong feelings around people and animals. I get their emotions, their worries, their love, their aggression, I just seem to know a thing or two about them... I can feel a person's reaction to me, which can be quite the shocking and electrifying experience sometimes! I believe there is an underlying level of connection, and it is something that can really be experienced and understood when we consciously tune into it and allow for it as a reality.
She has spoken to me, twice, outloud. Like, really bloody loud. The most potent time being when she piped up from nowhere to say, 'there are no mistakes'. I was in the car, and the voice came booming from my passenger seat. Yet I was alone. Or was I... And really, isn't that just the best advice?
She brings her messages with my tarot. Like when my husband was having a heart attack at hospital and I was home with the girls awaiting childcare to arrive. I was shaking like a leaf in hurricane. I pulled a card. The comfort of which was not only astounding, but the message, of transformation proved to be true. This is but one of thousands of examples of tarot genius she has gifted me... Just look to my clients testimonial page for more evidence that...
I have so many examples and one day I'm sure I will fill another book with them. And as for you, I hope some of this resonates, and takes you to your personal examples. Because I bet you have so many...
As it happens. My spirit, she upped her game recently. She came to me as a muse, as total inspiration, and she had me write a book, in five days flat. It is the most powerful assessment and guidance on life, that I have ever unwittingly stumbled across anywhere, never mind emanating from my own mind! I mean wow. When the spirit moves through you. Just wow. I hope to share that book with you one day soon...
But I'll tell you something else. That spirit, she told me she was all of us. The connection she described was beyond mind-blowing. In doing this she gave herself the nickname 'Dany'. Which is neither male or female, and yeah, she is genderless. I choose to call her a she, because, ya' know, redress the balance.
So I'm writing this because something in me has reached a deeper understanding. And it is so important I share this truth. So you can start to feel out your own. I expect Dany, who has been my inner wisdom, ally for life, has more to share with us all. So watch this space! And stay in touch. Here are some ways to connect to Dany and I on the regular...
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This year has had me questioning everything. It's been a difficult space and I've experienced everything from elation to existential worries, from clarity to severe anxiety. It's been tough. I was ready to put all the things I love to the side. One of those things being tarot. Yet the signs and symbols have not let this happen. I've had a steady flow of reminders that 'tarot is my thing's. Culminating in my eldest presenting this to me last night. She had worked on it in secret whilst I put her sister to bed. It really moved me. Not least because I had no idea she could do bubble writing! But also beacuse the sentiment, is not one I have ever expressed to her. Not in those words. But coming from her, it suddenly makes a sweet kinda sense. Tarot is my thing.
2018 has called upon me to surrender more times than I'd like to recall. Starting with drama, then heart attacks and a long stint supporting recovery. Not to mention all the mini drama and crisis that domesticity and mother hood breeds... This post is prompted by a new level of Surrender. One decorated with small failings, illness, mistakes and disrespectful technology, that over the course of time start to feel like a boot into something other, some other mysterious next step...
Yet, like many a feisty woman before me, I keep dusting myself off, standing up and then promptly getting knocked back down again. On repeat. Without fail. Like a broken record. In this process I have started to take better note of the spiritual message presenting itself to me. Here is the wisdom I have gleaned from Surrender as a spiritual Practice (so far).
Surrender will tear the illusion of control from you repeatedly. You will accept your surrender to some extent, and soon after that you will attempt to get back up and be the boss of your life again. It doesn't work. Surrender has no time frame. You can't do it for a week, or a month and expect the 'same old same old' to change. Surrender is control totally annihilated. You don't choose when you get back up. It happens,it will. But you don't choose. For now, rest, be still, nurture the present.
You cannot bargain with or set an intention for your surrender. To do so is not true surrender. It just isn't. That is your ego taking one last grasp at being in charge of your destiny. And when surrender is your spiritual lesson, your destiny, your fate, is no longer in your hands.
Being in a state of surrender feels deeply unnatural to busy human people. And yet, every plant and creature ion this planet is surrendered to their circumstance. We tend to convince ourselves the sun rises at our whim. But as all plants know, you are only as blossomed as the rain that fell, and as only as strong as the next good frost. aNd to these things, you must surrender. There is no fight to be had. Curl back into your roots and wait.
So often we battle to find the purpose, the answer to our conundrums of life. Surrender is about folding gently into the flow and letting it carry you. Trusting that it has a better outcome for you and your current dramas than you could possibly ever think up. And if not better, then different. Which may in time, turn out to be better...
Surrender feels at times like a total lack of life. Nothing goes right, great plans falter, small plans never even make it past your mind, drama encroaches and your usual 'pick me ups' leave you dry. It's a tiresome and empty moment to be in. Yet when you really dig and delve into just being. With all thoughts and plans truly put to the side. There are gems of laughter, play and mini purpose that come rushing in. But you must sweep aside all else to allow them space to play.
In real every day life Surrender can feel like a crumbling and a breaking away. Things go awry on every level. Stuff breaks and is lost, in a very tangible way, jewellery, clothes, cars. Your mind deserts you and what once was easy, is mired in a devout nothingness and as you urge the thoughts to be clear, so they become more foggy. Your body might ache, and appear, at times to be swollen with hormones, sneezes or mental confusion. This all is made worse, the more your resist. When you give over to Surrender, this stops, the signs and manifestations of it decease.
Surrender is mystery made manifest. While the space of total surrender, you don't know a damn thing. And for once, you areaway with that.You can give over to the fates or the gods or the cosmic alignments and let life do it's thing with you. Which is a relief is it not, from being the master planner of your own fortunes? Slide into it, trust it, let it take you where it will. For it will.
Alice Grist is the author of Dirty & Divine and creator of The Cosmic Mother Tarot - both available to buy on this site.
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How has your year been darling? I ask with utter sincerity and an expectation that you have struggled more than you have laughed.
2018, so far, has been hard work. So many crises and chaos, on the world stage, overly so in the life of individuals, those two things mingling and becoming one and the same. That which hurts one of us, hurts us all. Isn't that a message we are taking from a year of terrible dramas? That if one of us cries, we all can (should we choose to). If one of us falters, we all can. If one of us grows.... And so on. Connection, commitment, community, oneness... How have those things touched your life so far this year?
Here, mid year, midsummer, beautiful Solstice, we can take the opportunity to reflect on what we have been brought so far. As we do, we can set an intent to vibe onwards and upwards.
Let me be an example. This year started with my husband having a heart attack the week after his 39th Birthday. Everything, everything, everything has become beholden to that and to what it meant for him and us. His recovery has occurred on every level, mental, spiritual, physical, emotional. And it's not over yet... Recovery, I suspect, never is...
And yet the mood has turned, the labour of emotion is slowly bearing fruits. Not the fruits I expected. It's like I planted strawberries and got apples. Perfect, and yet, so different, so utterly unmatched to my recipe. But maybe my recipe can shift...
What are your fruits? What toil have you put into your life this year, that you didn't plan for, and how is it making you wiser and wilder?
How do you hope to take this forward?
Now is the time to reset goals, ambitions and hopes. Today is a good day to pray. This evening is a potent time to cast a spell, make a wish, create a vision board, or simply make an agreement with yourself. The year need not go out, as it came in. Take what this first half has taught you, hold it close, thank it, and move towards something, anything new, for that is what will come my dear, as ever. Love, Alice
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Enlightenment is a huge concept that has many of us reaching for the impossible. I believe that enlightenment comes to us all in little powerful doses, you don't need to be some kind of Spiritual Master either... Find out whether you have been 'enlightened' and / or experienced 'enlightenment' with this easy and spiritually accessible Vlog. i will teach you how to recognise enlightenment in your life and how you can be open to it's small, intriguing ways.
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What does the week ahead hold for you? You guys have always loved my live videos and tarot guidance. So I created a weekly new Vlog for you, posted here and on You Tube. Giving you the heads up of spiritual, emotional and life themes that you will encounter each week!
This totally free feature gives you an indepth intuitive, tarot and spiritual reading, with a side dose of free range spiritual teaching every Monday. Each week this might include any manner of tools for you to make the most of your week. I divine it as I go along, sometimes inserting meditation, oracle cards and guidance from a cosmic higher power - (call it what you want). I deal with each day for the week ahead, alongside the theme that presents itself. I utilise the same spiritual experience and humour that I was taught as a child and that I have carried forward into my books, my art, and my everyday life.
Each week's session is completely empowering and individual. This also stands alone as spiritual teaching. So it really doesn't matter if you come to this many months after it was initially posted. If you are watching, it holds something for you... Please watch and share.
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A beautiful, powerful and unique deck of Tarot Cards inspired by the feminine divine and the inner child, designed and painted by myself spiritual author and artist Alice Grist. I am so excited to re-birth these cards into the world.
These cards were painted by using watercolour and acrylic paints. I had much helps and inspiration from my then 4 year old daughter, Ivy Belle, who designed the beautiful back cover, and a couple of the cards too (Princess of Swords, 4 of Wands)! We got busy with our vibrant designs whilst my baby, Clover slept beside us. The magic of that time is imbued on every image.
These cards were produced in the aftermath of having written my popular book, Dirty and Divine. I was all worded out, four books later and ready for a change... I felt pulled to colour and paint and drawing. The cards started as a bit of fun. Something that my daughter and I could focus on together. In the beginning I had no intention of publishing them... But then they started to take shape, and they brought a lot to my life. So I decided to get a very limited number designed and printed out professionally, so that they may find another life with you! I cant wait to share them with you!
Cosmic Mother cards will connect you to the innocence, fun and folly of the inner child. They make tarot bright, and accessible, whilst retaining the depth and power necessary for spiritual work. I recommend them to everyone who wants to explore tarot from within their own world, using their life as expert and experience.
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What have you traded your passion in for?
Ah right, I know...
Once upon a time we had a passion. And it is really the very few who don't drop that as soon as adult life takes hold. Not because we don't care, but because our culture actively requests us to make money our passion. Not because we really care about money, but because money becomes essential to our survival when everything costs something.
So passion gets shelved for the weekend, for retirement, for that time when we have some time... Invariably, for most people, it is forgotten about. To the point that when asked to recall our passion, we actually don't know what it is...
Think back to your childhood and what you loved doing and/or the thing you really deeply cared about. There you go, that's it. Remember it now...
Of course, passion is hard work. We have to create time, space and the will to pursue it. And, the gifts it gives us are often invisible. We don't know what to do with, or how to justify such invisible blessings.
When we indulge passion, it may do nothing but make us feel better. And feeling better does not pay the bills...
I know this too well. I picked up my passion for spirituality and writing ten years ago. And whilst I have enjoyed some successes, they are not the same success that a material based world would have me aiming for.
And yet... I keep on going. Because life is too short not to. Maybe I will never find acclaim, or money or fame for my passion. But my passion is not invisible. It helps me. It exhausts me sometimes yes. And probably once a month :) I feel like quitting. But once you pick up a passion it is hard to put down. It is like nutrition for the soul. The good it does, is undeniable.
The problem lies not in the passion, but in what society expects of it, and us. We are expected to make our passion turn a profit, otherwise it is worthless.
Is your passion worthless? And who are you allowing to define worth for you?
Share your thoughts on your passion in the comments below? Are you following yours? Are you risking a few hours a week for it? And if not, why the heck not? Let's talk...
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When I work with clients one of my favourite tools is deep spiritual meditation. Each one I create is unique. I use the cards to intuit my way forward. When I channel a meditation I find myself so blissed out, rocking to a vibe that seems to come through me and I am as empowered as the listener.
I recorded a meditation today, just for you, and it's a powerful one. If you are ready to move forward in your life, to connect to something more, to get to know your path, to overcome difficulties, this meditation is one for you! It was quite exhaustive in all that it touches upon. I guarantee that after you have listened, you will be ready for a new perspective, the next level, and to understand and create more blessings in your life! Seriously, it is that good! And it is totally free, no catches, no need to sign up for anything. This is a gift. Simply download and listen...
All I ask is that if you enjoy this meditation please do share it on your social media, or with friends who are in need of a healing, empowering boost! Thank you, Alice x
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