Midlife has a bad rap. The crisis that invariably decorates it, seems strewn with stereotypes of balding men, playing out affairs and purchasing fast cars. There is no or little space for middle-aged women to understand their experience of it. It is unlikely we will even admit to being ‘middle aged’, always focusing on our youth, our young blood, our childlike spirit. But come on now, you are knocking on middle aged if you are anything over 35. Sorry. The truth aches like a menstrual cramp.
However, I have news and a view.
It is time we reclaim the midlife crisis as a time of resurrection, rejuvenation, transformation and enlightenment. We all had a grand time in our twenties, then probably spent our thirties fixing, firefighting and committing to things. When forty rolls around, if we survived the hermetic attentions of our life, we may feel a number of things, exhausted, frazzled, invisible, lost…
A crisis for a woman, at this stage, need not be a thing of blinding marvel or va-jazzelled fear. Rather, it can be a recharging of self. A recognition that things are not as they were. Never will be again. But that the bullshit we have suffered under, is something we are ready to release.
To do this we must first become conscious of the following three things.
Are you with me?
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High Priestess Full Guidance Reading - Skype or PDF by Email
A no nonsense tarot reading for a very modern spiritual client. My guidance reading will hook you back into your own intuition and glide you back onto your purpose. Looking at several areas of your life, and employing radical intuitive guidance, I offer hope, healing and above all, a massive dose of empowerment!
What you get...
Intuitive Reading - guidance grasped from spirit and your higher self. That which you know deep down, but have not yet acknowledged within.
Your Power Animal - a totem to guide you at this time. Wisdom from that animal that is channelled just for you as an individual.
Healing - guidance dedicated to healing whatever is in need of resolution.
Freedom - how to attain it, how to release the old, guidance on what is keeping you stuck.
The Heart of the Matter. An intimate consideration of the heart of your situation, and what you should be aware of now.
Past - Where have you been, what did you learn that matters today? What is the past asking you to understand at this current moment? This section helps you pull at useful strands, lay things to rest and make the most of your history!
Present - A transition into the very real power of this moment. What needs addressing, seizing and understanding at this current time. Helping you to shift towards a more helpful and enlightening understanding of your present circumstances.
Future - Where are you headed and how you can make this work for you. A review of where you are headed and how to make the very best of it. This is not fortune telling, but rather, fierce and loving sign posting.
Indepth intuition on the following individual areas; Love, Career, Family / Friends and Health
Final Guidance - Dirty and Divine.A fabulous cross section of self. Where your human meets your spirit, they marry up and they find an awesome way forward.
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Cosmic Mother Life Purpose Reading - PDF Report by Email
This is my deepest and most detailed reading. It is a lengthy and empowering piece of work that requires hours of my time to to channel and present. The words within will compel inspiration and change in you. An empowering and spirit evoking report based reading. Perfect for those who wish to receive a truly full & empowering assessment of their life that they can read and revisit over time. Beautifully written, and never shying from truth, this reading is a blueprint for your soul.
Areas this reading looks into...
What did your life mean at the very moment of your birth? What were you placed here to bring and achieve? Your personal highest power.
What talents you have brought to be shared?
You on a bad day – an insight into your darker side.
You on a good day - embrace the best of you.
Your Karma- What karmic lessons this life has brought or intends for you.
Your route to a happier life. Peaceful and restorative guidance that shows you how you can up your dose of happy.
Maiden: Your early years - what your younger years brought to your life and what can be harnessed.
Goddess: Your middle years - who you are becoming, who you are, what life is teaching you.
Crone: Your later years - what the latter part of your life will bring to the world, and to you.
Love: What lessons does your love life harbours for you in this lifetime. -
Career: What you can set to learn from your career and work in this lifetime - What is your purpose? And how can you get on your path!
Health: Considers any health issues or challenges this lifetime may bring.
Family and Friends: Lessons from our nearest and dearest and how to best handle those in your life.
Archetypes - three powerful archetypes for you to be inspired by and that will lead you forward.
What your life will mean to the world on the day you return to spirit. Who have you been? How will you be remembered. What aspects of you will echo through to the future...
Your current situation in terms of ego and intuition. A spiritual assessment of your inner state, guidance to embrace for your highest benefit at this very moment in time.
Freedom (Now) How to access and achieve the most freedom in your current situation.
Healing. Powerful, loving guidance on healing and amending all that causes you pain.
Animal Totem Guidance - love and wisdom from you power animal of the moment!
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Signed Copy of Dirty and Divine - UK ONLY
Purchase direct form the author and receive a signed copy AND a personal note in the front of the book about which card is your current 'power card'. This is for UK customers only.
Customers living in other countries will be able to order this book from large retailers or have it ordered into your local book shop!
Dirty and Divine Prescription Reading - available worldwide by Email (PDF Report)
An empowering reading that engages and expands upon the following spiritual help...
Animal Spirit - brings forth wisdom to help nurture your karmic ties and powers into fruition. Employ this animal spirit in your every day life to really power up your way forward.
Dirty Card and Divine Card - Two cards hand pulled to really enlighten your current situation. what are you seeing? What are you not seeing? How can you make the most of it? Enlightening guidance, just for you!n
Dirty & Divine Solution - The tarot will be consulted on how best to employ your Dirty & Divine (human and spirit) and to overcome any blocks, follow your path and take advantage of the moment for your highest purpose. Focuses on what you need to know right now and advises you into the future. Fascinating insight from your highest self!
Final overview and guidance... A card that allows information to be finalised in a way that brings it all together. Allowing for further wisdom and letting the cards give you a powerful lead!
The Cosmic Mother Tarot Deck - Only a few decks left - No reprint plans
£35.00 - £48.00
LAST FEW DECKS REMAINING - No plans for a reprint.
A beautiful, powerful and unique deck of Tarot Cards inspired by the feminine divine and the inner child, designed and painted by myself spiritual author and artist Alice Grist. I am so excited to birth these cards into the world.
These cards were painted by me using watercolour and acrylic paints. I had much helps and inspiration from my then 4 year old daughter, Ivy Belle, who designed the beautiful back cover, and a couple of the cards too (Princess of Swords, 4 of Wands)!
These cards were produced in the aftermath of having written my popular book, Dirty and Divine. I was all worded out, four books later and ready for a change... I felt pulled to colour and paint and drawing. The cards started as a bit of fun. Something that my daughter and I could focus on together. In the beginning I had no intention of publishing them... But then they started to take shape, and they brought a lot to my life. So I decided to get a very limited number designed and printed out professionally, so that they may find another life with you! I cant wait to share them with you!
Cosmic Mother cards will connect you to the innocence, fun and folly of the inner child. They make tarot simple, and accessible, whilst retaining the depth and power necessary for spiritual work. I recommend them to everyone who wants to explore tarot from within their own world, using their life as expert and experience.
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Dear John Hunt Publishing,
Please can we discuss or immediately action taking my first book The High Heeled Guide to Enlightenment out of print. After much thought I have decided it is deeply culturally appropriative and white washes much spiritual experience that originates with people of colour. Whilst I "meant well" at the time my treatment of Shamanism / shamanic people's in particular is insensitive and focuses on a white, western and privileged experience of those cultures. I have no desire to continue to colonize those beliefs and my "good intentions" do not undo any damage to those faiths / people this chapter might cause.
Other aspects of the book are equally problematic and I'm not happy to associate or gain from it. I did consider continuing to sell it and offering any funds made to relevant charities. However that's a bit like chopping down a tree to water another. The damage is still done. Once this book is out of print I will publicly publish this email by way of explanation and I may go on to make chapters / sections of the book freely available on my website, not however, the offensive ones. I am so grateful for your part in my writing journey, and none of this reflects in any way on our publishing relationship. Thanks for understanding.
I believe we all must do what we can to address any harm we have done when unconscious to our own racism. This is my way of doing that. No issue with my other books as they focus on my personal experince of spirituality, rather than an exploitation of anybody else's.
The Other Half of Addiction
I have a confession. My husband is an addict (in recovery - thank you goddess).
There are times I have alluded to this in my books. There are even more times I have utterly dismissed it, even to myself. There are times I have raised a glass, with him, to his health, to our happiness, and then regretted it as one glass, becomes two and little did I know he had a few before in secret anyway.
I am the ‘other half’ of an addicted person. And it is galling. It is devastating to write this. Yet in my latest book, Dirty & Divine (March 2017 – Womancraft Publishing), I finally confronted the fact that this is real. It isn’t just a bad weekend. It isn’t just a bit of a bad habit. It is a dependency, one that I played into for many years. One that I now wish to escape, and yet find myself mired beside.
I am a spiritual person. I believe all things come about with purpose. When I strode out onto the very personal tarot journey detailed within Dirty and Divine, I did not expect one of the key themes of that book to be alcoholism. I dreamed of adventures with my daughters, creative journeys indulged, meaningful meditation and perhaps a little magic. But instead I got booze, and arguments, and finally, confession.
So my path opens wide ahead of me. The sacred journey I am treading right now, in part, is the hand holding recovery of an alcoholic. What I have discovered along this path is that there is very, very little support for the other half of an addict. And woe betide me to say this, but the addict, lovely as they may be, tends to make it all about them. For it is their crux and cross to bear. But what about the family and loved ones of that person? How do they cope, soulfully, lovingly, spiritually to ensure their wellbeing is not depleted by the actions and addictions of a person who is paramount in their lives?
My first desire, upon encountering this situation (and it does tend to become cyclical – every so often an addict will pipe up that they have a problem, but soon it is hidden and feistily discounted), is to cut my losses and leave. Because this is too much. I am not an addicted kind of person. When I smoked, I would go days without even thinking or needing it. I did it for fun. Then I just stopped. Easy as that. I don’t enjoy drugs or alcohol enough to want to consume them, socially or secretly. They are just an option, that I tend to leave.
My crutch, if anything, is my spirituality. That harms nobody. Indeed it tends to be something many of my readers and clients find loving and helpful. So if I am addicted to anything, it is to the pursuit of a spirited wellbeing. So when I find out I’m thoroughly shacked up with a dude who is dependent upon substances, quite, quite dependent, I want to freak and get the hell out.
Yet I didn’t. And sometimes I don’t know why. The addict is unsure of who he is. And I think I see him more clearly. I see the loving father. The thoughtful chocolate bringer. The guy who cuts the grass when I can never be bothered. The moodiness and dark cloud aspect of his personality was previously channeled into songs and music, and so therefore, it was cool and romantic. Since the songs and music have dried up, and the kids and domesticity has taken over. The moods and depressive tendencies are just that, grim, foreboding, unwelcome.
There is little help for me. I take my spirit and I walk it around the house. I indulge it in the arms of my little kids. I pretend, fervently that all is well. Because, as it happens, I am quite happy. I’m lucky like that. I find contentedness comes pretty easy. I know myself. I have my faith. I adore my children. My glass is always half full, with water, or coffee, and only occasionally with wine.
Yet is is hard to be the other half of an addict. For their shadow casts itself, inevitably over the wonder that is life. I can be feeling the joy, big time. And a glance from him, a too heavy sigh, a bang in the kitchen, and it can all be washed away.
For that is where the rub is. The addict, my addict, your addict, medicates his existence. He cannot deal with real life. And I can. So we disagree, on that very fundamental point. I can cope, he cannot. It is a frustration borne of some heavy karma, be it mine or his, I really don’t care. In this instance, with this addict, it seems I am committed, through love, to the long-haul of recovery.
And so with a heavy heart and some reluctance, I’m reaching out, to other folk, ones like me who have an addicted partner or loved one. There is a void of infomrtaion for us, a void of companionship. We siuffer in silence. I am breaking my silence, I’m saying hey! I’m saying look at me, I’m okay, but I wouldn’t mind sharing this load with you.
I want you to know that you are not alone. That you are not to blame, and that you too, can find joy in and of your own existence. Where we go from next, I’m not sure. I am happier to write this, to confess to this, because my husband is actually seeking professional help right now. Not his usual declarations of ‘I’ll cut down’, but actual proper help, form someone other than me. He is trying.
Is your addict trying? And if not how are you sustaining your soul? Because it is all too easy to get lost in the nonsense, the black hole of illogic that the addict makes seem so very logical. So with all the love in the world, I offer a hand, and some thoughts, on how to be the other half of addiction…
Some ideas for you.
Be in the moment. If you are not around your addict, release and relinquish them and enjoy your life. Spurn their dark cloud in favor of your rainbow. Be with others that you love. Have your own secret life of happiness. Find comedy and laughter in everything. Their addiction is not you, nor is it ever caused by you. Find your self, first and foremost, even if it is just making time in your own mind to be with you and to figure out how you feel.
Listen to your intuition. If they tell you they are not actioning their addiction, but your heart says otherwise. Go with your heart. Try not to be a fool to it. I have been a fool hundreds of times over. I have believed his declarations of abstinence, even when I have found direct evidence of otherwise. Nowadays I just choose to believe in me instead, and to know that he is an addict. End of.
Get out into nature. Nature has a rhythm that prevents addiction. It flows beautifully. It spirals from one creature to the next, one plant to the next. One thing is only ever dependent on another in the most astonishing and healthy ways. Be like nature. Reject those things which try to pull you away from that which feels natural to you.
Talk to someone. Maybe a friend. Maybe a parent. Maybe a counselor. Yes they might judge. Maybe they should. Maybe you should. Get some perspective.
Check in on how you might be enabling the behavior, and then alter yourself. Don’t try to change them (mission impossible). But change yourself. Stop pleading with them to be different, and instead, plough that same energy inward. You be different.
Leave your addict to their own devices. You are not their parent, and even if you are their parent, you cannot parent an addiction. It has its ways. If you create something for them to fight against, then by golly will they fight and the addiction gets stronger, and you, my dear, get weaker. So don’t fight, go sing, dance, garden, bake, run a business or do zumba instead.
If you have a spirituality about you, then dig into it. Crack open a pack of tarot or guidance cards. Go to church. Pray by the sea. Manifest peace. Visit a temple. Be with likeminded souls. Meditate, of course you should meditate. Yoga, that too. Know that you are profoundly important. Ask to be guided. Ask for a sign. Follow what is offered. Listen to your gut, your instinct.
Love for you, love for them, love for the other people involved. Set that as your starting point and your goal. It isn’t weak. It can be very strong. Turn it inward. Make it the crux of your decisions. Love yourself first too. Always that.
How you can help your partner / friend / loved one with their addiction.
You can’t. Not really. They have to want to help themselves. Which they may try to do many, many times with varied degrees of success. Your lecturing / advising / pep talks and wisdom may play some part in support. It may fall on deaf ears. Make a conscious decision not to help, or at least not to try and enforce help. Just be present. If they need you, they will tell you. Otherwise your energies are better spent on yourself.
With that in mind you can model happiness by example. Get on with your life. Do what you want to do. Be who you want to be. Irrespective of the addicted person’s life goals (or lack of them). You must live. You simply must. Nothing goes on hold. You have infinite access to joy and love of your own creation. Find it. Search for it. Be it. If anybody wants to use you as a bloody good example of a life well lived, let them.
Don’t engage the behavior. If somebody has had a few tipples or whatever, and they want to fall into negative behavior. Remove yourself. If that behavior is aimed at you, disengage, step back, observe what is happening. Do all in your power not to get pulled in. Easier said than done of course, but essential for your sanity. Make notes if you must, that you can examine later to be reassured that it is not about you.
Know it is not about you. They may not know that. You can. And you should. By choosing to know that, and perhaps repeat that to them like a mantra, ‘this is not about me’, you keep your strength, and they may start to realize, that heck, it’s tall about them, always has been and always will be. The ball is then firmly back in their court..
Know when enough is enough. Addicts sometimes feed off of the crap in your relationship, it gives them a hook to hang their grievance on. Know when to leave. I once left my husband. It catapulted him into a dark night of the soul. We got back together. Things have never been so bad since, not even nearly. His addiction since that time has been quieter and far more civilized. It is a work in progress, that eleven days of separation was a catalyst for a long healing journey.
Capture the happy moments. The past few years have not been all doom and gloom. People are more than just addiction. Focus on things that work. Pour your attention into the times when the addiction is not causing a problem. Remember those times often, and repeat them.
Know it is a long slow burn to recovery. Truly. I have been in this for a long time. It is slowly getting better. I do credit to my own spirit by remembering that. It is getting better. People can change. We can help them. We too can change as a result. The human spirit is a marvelous thing. Allow it to grow in your both.
Finally, even recovery is not some magic pill. Recovery is for ever and as well as 'getting better' the addict must navigate a whole new life without their substance of choice. This, is hard. For everyone. Patience and support are sometimes hard to come by, but they truly help.
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