Sanity, stability and spirituality

Next week is the launch of my new book Dirty and Divine. This is a book that took my real life and scoured it. I started writing it from a stance that I am a fairly stable person, that I am sane, that I am emotionally sound, and that I therefore was in the perfect position for outward growth. I created the journey within the book, not because I wanted to examine myself, but because I wanted to blossom. 

What I didn't count on was that blossoming, in part, takes a lot of dirt, a great deal of compost and some much needed darker times. That is what the journey gifted me. Instead of flinging angels and miracles my way. I got a whole spectrum of life dolloped on and around me. Not so much magic, but rather the enlightenment of seeing my life for what it is. The tarot called me out. They took my 'sanity' and they said, "nah, you don't just get manifestation, you work for it baby." And before I could manifest a damn jot, they had me work. They had me work through pain, suffering, sickness and they made me open my eyes to one almighty situation I had been glossing over repeatedly.

The tarot took my sanity, my stability and threw it. They may as well have said, "nope, you don't need these. What you need is to get a little unhinged, a little emotional, a little dark. Then you damn well clamber out lady and find the light." Honestly, the journey of Dirty and Divine had me question everything from my ability to cope, to my faith in a spiritual existence. It was all laid bare for me. And I laid it bare upon the pages of the book, so that you may use my example as a climbing frame to the life you desire.

Now this all sounds a little dark. But it was a darkness I needed. After several years, praising my own ability to cope, my ability to love, my ability to be calm, my ability to evolve, those things needed putting to the test. I found, that those things, are not a given. They are a choice. They are a difficult choice.

Sometimes it is easier to slip into a comatose 'can't be bothered' or to cloy for an escape from it all, be that distraction, divorce or devolvement into something lesser. Dirty and Divine, made me examine my life in ways I hadn't wanted to. But... that I needed to for the next step to be enabled. It was therapy, it was intense and in the end, when all of this was examined and my sanity somewhat restored, it was liberating.

So here I am, still reeling and benefiting from the journey. And it is your turn next. What comes of your Dirty and Divine journey is something I am fascinated to hear about. For I know in my soul, that will be so different for every person who undertakes her ride... 

​Dirty and Divine is now available for preorder. All preorder customers receive a big discount on one of my readings, an invite to a very special online party and a free PDF guide to tarot. Only one day left to preorder, so please buy your signed copy today here... 

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